Auntie ME!!!

YAY! I am an Auntie again! Yip Yip! I soo wish I was there when sweet baby boy was born!
I have been for all my neices/nephews births and if not there, hours after birth! So this is tough, to be so far away and I hope to see him around Thanksgiving time!!!

In the mean time, Paige is definitely breaking in Kindergarten, yesterday, the nurse called and she had a migraine in the morning, they gave her motrin, let her lay down, then sent her off to lunch, where she spilled juice on herself and needed a change of clothes. I went to take her new pants and she was sleeping, she sat up and I asked her if she was ok to stay at school, (trying to talk her into it!!).
I put her down and she said, I am gonna throw up................and there it was all over the nurses office!! I guess that answered my question! Man we make a great impression :) She spent the afternoon in bed, woke about 330p, and was good as new. This morning, I woke up at 6A with a major, major migraine!!!! After taking yesterday off for her, I could not take more time for dear ME! After a few meds, I am feeling a bit better.
This Colorado weather change must be getting the best of both of us!

Isn't She Lovely.....

Flu shot = No whining, No crying, No bribing! Even when she got the shot!! Ah yeah, it was a good day! And after the flu shot we had a picnic and walked the trail down to the river (yes I MADE her) for some pics! The walk was a whole 5 minutes! Yes I gave her a piggy back ride for half that 5 minutes while carrying our picninc stuff! She loved every minute of the river......... SEE

Doing the weekend DANCE!!! WHOOT WHOOT!

Oh How I love the weekends!!! Especially during the Fall season....
Laying under my warm, cozy blankets as long as Paige will allow me!
I have even figured out how to set my coffe pot to brew all on its own, so when I do pull my
lazy butt out of my covers, I can go poor a hot cup of coffee! Ahhh, the simple things in life!
No school today, Paige is spending the day at a friends house, hopefully being nice! She is very sweet, but when you get two 5 year old GIRLS together, you never know what might come of the day....
Paige has a cold, yucky cough, luckily no fever. We are in tomorrow morning for our flu shots!
Lovely, That means its gonna be a whiny, bribing morning, that's ok! I love it!
80 degrees with red/yellow and brown leaves...........I love fall!
And here's to a realxing time in the backyard finishing up Book 3 of the Twilight Sage!!! Who new vampires could be sooooooooo HOT!
Pretty close to McDreamy and McSteamy!!!!!! I love Grey's Anatomoy

Mitochondrial Disease Awareness week

First I will explain a bit of what my post from yesterday was about. 2 people were talking about an adult child that was sick, and I heard Landon's story come up, which is completley fine, I want his story heard. Unforunatley the first sentence that came out included these words.....But he looked "normal"........Those words are not words I want, nor any mother for that matter, used in a sentence with my childs name. I included myself in the conversaton and started with He was Normal.....................Maybe the words, he looked healthy would ahve settled better........So anyways, I was stuck in a place where I had no one to talk to, so I came here and let it all out. I want Landon's name to come up, I want his story heard, I want to spread awareness for mitochondrial diseases, but I also want it told in a manner that any mother wants... So I am done with this and moving on.
So it is Mitochondrial Disease Awareness Week, and PAige and I lit a 3 wicked candle.....1 light for Landon, 1 light for Marie and 1 light for all the other kiddos and adults who are or who have battled this nasty disease........

"Normal"

I sit here in complete ahhhh, wanting to sit in a corner in tears.
Maybe I am being too sensitive, maybe over reacting......
What does the word "normal" mean to you? My child had a terminal illness, my child could
not walk, talk, eat, sit, laugh..............
My Child could.........melt my heart, taught me how to see his smile in his eyes, taught me life is more than pretending to be perfect, taught me an ever lasting love even though I cannot feel, touch or see him.............
My child was Nomal...................Normal to certain standard I guess that some might not have seen.......................... He looked healthy..............

Normal (My Definiton)

The way God made you..........................NORMAL

Mitochondrial Disease Awareness Week

Join the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation and like minded organizations around the world as we remember all the children and adults who suffer from mitochondrial disease and to honor those who have lost their battle with mitochondrial disease. Please join the UMDF in lighting a candle to honor all of our families and friends during Awareness Week. Light a candle for Mito on Wednesday, September 23, 2009 or any time during the week.

To help in our efforts to find a cure/treatment

www.umdf.org/landonshope

Weekend in Photos

First we went to Jumpin to celebrate Paige's hard work at school/bedtime

Then I stained thisOOPPS! Stain does not look good slopped on the sidewalk!

Then I sat in my chair and looked up at this......

While I drank one of these......

Today my mom came for a BBQ and brought this (snickers cheese cake from the Cheese Cake Factory!!!

Met some friends at the park, and rented Hotel for dogs and are finally doing this...

Where did these......

Awful bags under my eyes come from????? I am having a tough time pulling my Booty outta bed in the morning! The darker, cooler mornings make it tough to crawl out from under my soft , warm blankets! And by looks of my eyes, I am in need of some extra zzzzz's. Luckily for me it's FRIDAY!!! WHOO HOOO!!!
Bed time was very relaxing and calm last night! Hurray for that! Hoping it continues! She slept great, not getting up at all and I didn't have to wake her this morning! You do NOT wonna wake that girl up in thie morning! Here's to a beautiful weekend, the weather at 80 degrees could not get any nicer going in to Fall here in Colorado!

Bad Evening

Paige was in a good mood when I picked her up from school. WE went home, ate and then headed to the park. Came home did her homework, which she finished great!
Then she wanted to do melt-a-beads, and then all HELL broke loose. She started to get frustrated becasue she was tired and thing weren't quite going the way she would have liked (melt-a-beads were falling over while she was putting new ones in). A huge tantrum broke loose, and that is how the rest of out night went. She calemd down and then the whole "BED" word came up and things continued to escalate. She kept saying she didn't know how to fall asleep. She has always fallen asleep by herself on her own in the past. After an hour of trying to get her in bed (I hate that word these days) I finally ended up sitting on her bed rubbing her back and running my fingures through her hair. Which was very relaxing for her, and for me!
I am now thinking she is maybe getting a little "over done" per say with school and the after school program she is in until I pick her up at 6P. So I have ordered this http://www.walmart.com/catalog/product.do?product_id=3951143
to help try and wind things down a bit.
Ohhh if only I had a crystal ball that went into her little mind!!!!
She was great again this morning, asked if it was a school day and after I said yes, she said YAY!!! Awesome!

My Sweet little girl!!

She is doing so good. She is having so much fun at school. Learning so much and maturing so much. I see how much she has grown, I watch her hop off, as she pushes her nervousnous to the side, and I watch the beauty in her step.
She is soo full of energy, life.
She has this camera she got for Christmas last year, just a cheap one, but it is girlie, with pink and purple swirls....... I told her she could have my old one ( my sister gave her old one, which is nicer than my old one) She came right out and said "No yours isn't Stylish!"
She has been "scared" to go to bed and we have battled this for over a month. It has come to an extreme that it never has before. Nothing I say or do helps in anyway. We have nightlights, music, white noise, we have talked about it and I even got her a Hannah Montana flashlight, still, nothing works. She isn't getting the sleep she needs and is waking alot at night since she is in my bed. She has never slept with me before...... last night I simply had to let her cry for a few minutes and realize that I was not going to give in. She did great. I went in after those few minutes and she said "I need to tell you a secret" she wispered in my ear "I miss Landon"
We talked about him.................she asked questions, I answered, she said I want everything of Landon's in my bed.... I grabbed all of his teddy's and his blankie and she slept, in her own bed, all night long, was the best nights sleep she has had in a long time!
My Sweet little girl!
I found that exaclty 1 year ago, this is my post form Landon's CB

September 16, 2008
I want to share today, as I am missing Landon so very much! God has a
message for me as I hurt so bad. I went to pick up mail today. I opened a card
from a friend that lost her daughter a little over a year ago. (Thankyou Lisa!!)
Her message to me was that "Your saddness is a sign of how much you loved
Landon". The other letter was from Hospice, I opened the letters that were
folded, I didn't even unfold the papers and this is what I read.

The agony is
so great... and yet I will stand it. Had I not loved so much I would not hurt so
much. But goodness knows I would not want to diminish that precious love By one
fraction of an ounce. I will hurt and I will be grateful to the hurt For it
bares witness to the depth of our meaning, And for that I will be eternally
grateful.

Shirley Holzer Jeffrey

The new DO...

I really like it, adds some BOUNCE to my step and will be really easily done. It is hard to see the different lengths in the picture but it does have a ton of layer ing, my hair was to "clean" to hold a curl. But I love it!

New Do

I have no style, well not much and I have pretty much had the same "Do" for a very long time.....Well OK my whole life. I did cut it shorter 1 time, but only to grow it back out.

I have an appt on Saturday and I am thinking maybe its time for a change. My hair has become very thin for some reason, I am loosing alot! Luckily I have, well had, thick hair. So if you want and read this before Saturday, please leave a note as to which of the below you like better or if you have any ideas for me!

For those who don't know, my hair is pretty long and all 1 length for the most part. (expect the nasty break offs that seem to be sticking straight up!) I personally like Kelly Monaco's best! If I were only that hot!

Sweet Marie

We headed to Holyoke last week for Marie's service. It was beautiful!!

The pictures of her smile everywhere, all of her favorite things and every heart she touched!

There family and friends are amazing! A lot of love in Holyoke! Shan and Luke have an amazing way making you feel right at home! Maybe it is all of the love! It is refreshing to see them, the way they love each other, lean on each other! Marie and Landon are together, running, playing and i am sirring stirring up a lot of Kaous!

Paige and Josie had lots of fun! They have a bond that will last forever!

Please keep them in your prayers.

Here is a pic of Paige practicing for school pics!

Jibber Jabber

Paige is falling into the sceam of Kindergarten. She loves the after school program, the Huskie Club! She tells me to make sure I pick her up late! HA! She is very full of energy and excited about it! She love PE, or Gym as we call it, every time I say PE, she says Mommy what it PE!
So I tell her it is Gym class.
The glasses are going over very well, which is a complete releif. The first 20-30 minutes were very rough! She cried and screamed and I know it took everything in her not to take them off and throw them across the room! It came close to that, but Scooby calmed her down and I think when she realized she could see better, she wanted to wear them. Has not been an issue since then! YAY!
We are headed to Holyoke tomorrow for Marie's service. Cannot wait to give that family hugs!