Christmas

Merry (belated) Christmas!!

We had a busy, fast Christmas here. Well I guess if by busy you mean making cookies and eating alot! We had fun. We were all at my house (except my older sister and her family).

I refused to leave this year. It just didn't feel right leaving. So we ate alot and sat alot. The kids kept each other busy and today we ended it with a big game of bowling. Paige's new favorite thing to do, except I think the only reason she likes it is for the arcade games and snacks!

It should be fun getting back to the groove of things come Monday for a few days and then a few days off!! YAY!!

Along with the good, fun times, were the sad times. I missed Landon a ton. It just is not right going to the cemetery on Chrismas to take your child a gift. That is the only time I lost it, sometimes when I go to the cemetery, it feels like the past year is being thrown into my face. That is tough to take!

We did take Landon a tree decorated with pictures and a string that Abby crocheted. Mike's family took a wreath, which was very pretty!

Here are some pics from the last few days.

HU (hurtin unit)

Yep that's me. I am one big HU, I don't know if anyone know what a ultimotion is. Kind of like a wii game. This hooks up to the TV and has different sports. Tennis, Golf, Bowling, and Football.
Well as kids our parents always took us to play tennis. I had not played in a long time but have always loved it. Well this game is soo fun. It is as if you are really playing.
WELL> We played a bit during the day on Saturday, then we actually went to the bowling alley and bowled, for real and 2 games. Then after the kids went to bed, my sister and I stayed up until about 11p playing tennis. This was like for 3 hours!
Again, this was Saturday, It is Monday and I can barley move!
Too funny. What a workout! I had to order one. Paige likes the golf! And now she likes to go bowling too, we found a new hobby for these cold snowy days!
Please say prayers for Sweet Kaia's family. She was just diagnosed with Leigh's a few short days ago and went to Heaven this morning.
PLEASE !! Tell everyone you know about this disease, we really need to find a treatment or cure!
I will be do a fundraiser for Landon's birthday this year. I know I said that last year too, but this year it is going to happen. Any ideas, please let me know!

Oh the sharing!

Well I must say the freezing cold weather can go at any time!
So I blogged about our dog being sick, well he has not gone outside the last few days other than to run out midyard squat and run back to the door to get back in. I can't really say I blame him, it is by far way to cold. But he also as not eaten in 2 days. Not sure if this is him getting really sick or just, I'm to freakin cold to go out there even if it means to grab some food. I tried bringing his food inside to feed him and he still had no interest, but I put the food back outside, cause I surely am not going to leave the dog food in the house for him to eat it and then have to go poo, when no one is home to let him out!
So I now have a very snorty dog sleeping on my floor. He was sleeping at the bottom of the stairs, he then figured out how to sneak up when I went to bed and slept on the floor in the living, he then resorted to sneaking into my room when he thought I was asleep. Now he just does whatever he wants.
Paige has also figured out that for the sake of not listening to a bunch of crying and whining at 5A, she can also sneak into my bed. So she is getting up extremely early to crawl in my bed, but she then sleeps until about 7 or like this morning 730A. I'll take it! Getting up at 6A to sit at the table and color is no fun! Ater a few days of that. I told her she had to watch cartoons until I had my coffee! So I can handle a little bed buddy for a few hours extra sleep!
She has not gotten sick since he last bout a few weeks ago. She has been very energetic and happy for the most part. I am going to help with her class Christmas Party on Thursday and hope to get some good pics of her with her friends.
I have signed her up for private swim lessons at the rec center, so she will start that next month!

WOW

Something very interesting just happened.
We went to light the candle and put a ribbon on the tree at the funeral home. Mike picked Paige up and met me over there.
Well feeling a bit eary and all these feeling of the funeral home came back to me. Walking in, there is 1 other family standing there writing on the ribbon. Now I don't know too many people in Greeley, but the family was a family that Paige and Landon went to daycare with. The 2-3 months he went he was there with this little boy at times. Paige had gone to daycare with him for a few years. But the strange thing happened when I got home.
Mike took Paige to her Christmas party so I came home to finish uploading the pics on here. I Put my food in the microwave and ran down to click upload. I went back up got my food out of the microwave and was making a sandwich when I heard something hit the ground, right by my feet.
Now I don't know if I blogged on this necklace before. But Shan had it made for me after Landon passed. I cried when I saw it becasue it is soo very special. It has his name on one side and the day he was born and the day he grew his wings. It also has his birthstone and angel wings attached. I wear this necklace almost everyday, there are days I forget to put it on. I usually store it in the original case and in my purse, so I can put it on when I get to work. Last night I took it off and put it next to the TV in the livingroom. I remember exactly the spot. And I went to put it on today at work and remembered exactly where I put it.
So I heard something drop by my feet, I look down an it is the necklace! Now I am in shock at this point. It is as if it were thrown at me. I stood in disbelief. Then I thought back to this morning and thought well maybe I meant to take it with me and that is as far as I got with it. But not the case, the first time I had even thought about was at work and I remember thinking, oh yeah I left it next to the TV. And in a spot that Paige would not have even looked or touched it.
I then prayed. Thanked God and my Landon for sending me such a sign in a time I needed it again!
Shan, this necklace is soo special. This and the locket my mom gave me. They are soo very special. Thank you.
I came here to update on things, but after writing all this. I will wait for another time....
Love to all
Tami

Paige's Beavis and Butthead moment

SO on our little trip, Paige and her cousins, decide who was gonna be in her band. They got it all figure out and they named there band the Tooters! Nice huh!
So this morning Paige on my bed watching TV and a commercial came on for helping kids with learning.
They said "private tutors" will be assigned.
She immediately started laughing and said PRIVATE TOOTERS!!! Very funny!!!

She woke up throwing up again. This is the 3rd time in the last month. She was really crabby when I picked her up last night and woke at 1A crying and had to potty, seh went and then again at 2A woke crying and said she had to potty, tried and nothing, then again at 5A, she got up and threw up. She then asked if it was morning and I said no and had her come to bed with me. She slept until 710A or so and she really could have slept alot longer. I hate being a working parent! I had to take her to preschool so I could work. She really did feel ok was just tired and she can nap at about 1p, they will call if she is not feeling well. It is snowy and icy here it took about 45 mintues to get work (usually only 25).

TO: God.com
Dear Lord,
Every single evening
As I'm lying here in bed,
This tiny little Prayer
Keeps running through my head:

God bless all my family
Wherever they may be,
Keep them warm and safe from harm
For they're so close to me.
And God, there is one more thing
I wish that you could do;
Hope you don't mind me asking,
Please bless my computer too.
Now I know that it's unusual
To Bless a motherboard,
But listen just a second
While I explain it to you, Lord.
You see, that little metal box
Holds more than odds and ends;
Inside those small compartments
Rest so many of my friends.
I know so much about them
By the kindness that they give,
And this little scrap of metal
Takes me in to where they live.By faith is how I know them
Much the same as you.
We share in what life brings us
And from that our friendships grew.
Please take an extra minute
From your duties up above,
To bless those in my address book
That's filled with so much love.
Wherever else this prayer may reach
To each and every friend,
Bless each e-mail inbox
And each person who hits "send".
When you update your Heavenly list
On your own Great CD-ROM,
Bless everyone who says this prayer
Sent up to GOD.com
Amen

What should I get ___________for X-mas, they have everything already......

How about giving the money that you would spend to a good cause instead of a store that already has millions.
This year, instead of buying a ton of stuff that most likely will be touched a few times and then thrown in a box until I find time to give it away, I am going to take that money and give it to someone who DOES need it. Now I admit I am totally broke! But I also know I will get Paige a few things for Christmas regardless of how broke I really am. But this year I will take half of what I plan to spend and give it away. Probably of course to mito research or maybe eli's angels. Maybe I should split it up and give to all of them. Here are a few places to throw a few dollars to.

www.umdf.org
www.elisangels.org
www.connorshouse.org

Just a few, that are mito realated in some way or another.
Also I wanted to share. I received an email from a mother in the UK, I am not sure how she got my email, online I presume, maybe Landon's CB. She emailed and shared that her 16 month old daughter was diagnosed with Leigh's disease 3 months prior and desperatley was looking for information. She said her daughter was very ill and she wanted information on "the end of life" per say. She was very careful knowing how knew and fresh I a in the whole grief and I was soo very happy that I could answer some of her questons and let her know that she was not alone. She emailed just about a week or less before Thanksgiving and we only exchanged about 3 emails. On Thanksgiving I recieved and email from her that her little girl had passed. Please keep her and her sweet angel in your prayers.

Tami