Going to pick out head stone

Ugh! Why is this soo difficutl for me. Am I in some sort of denial? We did not pick out a headstone for Landon after his passing. Quite frankly it was not priority for me nor affordable.
But thing I hav taken to the cemetary are dissapearing and that makes me very angry. We are going tomorrow to pick out a headstone so we can have a more appropriate place to go to greive, pray, cry. I am having such a tough time with this, I just cannot understan why, after all we have gone through. I am however going to be relevied when it is picked out. Maybe it is the fact that this it soo important and must be perfect, that the decision must be right because after all it will be there forever. I hope! Feeling emotional.
Paige was watching a cartoon this morning, they must have had a new baby boy in the house.
The little girl was singing to him....Little Brother, Little Brother, your hear with me forever and ever, I will take care of you, kiss you, love...................I stood in the other room and cried.
EMOTIONAL!
Lord please give me strength to make it through tomorrow......

Spring Fever

I have a major case of it! Saturday was really nice, took baloo for a nice walk! Sunday on the other hand was a complete windy disaster. Could not even step outside. needless to say it was a long, boring, eat everything in the house day!
Paige had the tummy flu on Thursday. Now she has this nasty cold. She did go to school today, of course against her own will, but I am sure she will do just fine when there!
I got some much needed time to myself on Saturday night. Soaked in the tub and had a glas of wine. Painted my toe nails and watched Twilight. Fell asleep on the couch about 9p and didn't even think about crawling out of bed till 8a Sunday morning. Very nice!
I have yet to plant seeds as they are not available in the stores yet. Hopefully soon!

Spring is coming

The way the sky looks today, it makes it feel like spring. Looks like raIn clouds this morning. Paige looked out the window this morning and said, "Mommy, it looks like a tornado out". It does make it feel like spring. Gives me hope that spring is coming soon. Despite the cold weather and the snow on the ground. Spring is only a few months away! I desperately long for it.....long to see my flowers bloom, long to feel the warmth on my body, long to get out for long walks, long to watch Paige play at the park and run around barefoot!
I think it just might be time to go buy a few flower pots and get some seeds growing inside.

Yes, Spring is coming!

Yes I do ...............

Get bored very easily, Hence the changing of my blog style..........AGAIN!
Since I last posted--
* I went from the age of 33 to 34. I feel good~!
*Paige started back to K and to say the least, this week has been filled with alot of crying and mind changing!
*We have watched the movie UP 15 times***sometimes not in its entirty due to leaving for K-Hence the tears!
*It is freezing fricken cold!
*Baloo is a gentle loving dog that Paige has become very attached to and to my suprise she feeds him!
* I have excercised every night to Gilad
*I have eaten 2 bags of tortilla chips in there entirty and a bottle and half of salsa---UGH! Hence the workouts!

Sending our love to everyone.

In 2010

I wish everyone hope, health and love.
In 2010 I want to give. I want to love, hope and live every moment to its fullest.

Not a chance of showing his manhood around here!