Landon's first year in Heaven and random pics

Well Monday was the day, Landon's 1 year in Heaven. I wanted to post that day so that I could come here and look back on it and see how far I grow in the years to come. But I didn't have any words, none, Totally emotionless. My sister came and spent the weekend, we spent most of our time in the pool at my mom's apartment, kept really busy and I think that was all we could do, was keep busy. Monday (the day) we took flowers and balloons to the cemetary and let the balloons fly to Heaven. I feel like I have conqured alot in the last year, I look back and I cannot beleive it has been a year, it feels like last week, but then it feels like a hundred years

since I have held his sweet hand, kissed his sweet cheeks.

Paige's Kindergarten questions

She is getting soo excited to start kindergaten.
This morning she asked what they would eat for lunch, I told her they would have a few options and that she could choose what she wanted, I also said she would have an option for regular milk or chocolate milk. Her eyes got really big and she said CHOCOLATE MILK !
Then she asked if she HAD to wear a watch in Kindergarten, I told her it was not required, She said What does required mean. So I exlanined the word to her. She asked how she had to write in Kindergarten and I told her the same way she writes and they will practice. She is so funny.
Oh to be a kid!

Monday

Monday is 1 year since Landon left this earth for Heaven. My emotions are running high. I don't know why the 1 year mark or any mark for that matter is different from any other day, everyday we painfully miss him just as much as the first day.

Paige things........

Another night of coughing and another day of sitting at work feeling like crap!
Hopefully tomorrow will be the day, the day to feel a bit more human.

Paige's new thing, is to make her own food, and she has discovered her like for mustard.
I let her pick out her own stuff at the grocery store, man she is a pro at throwing stuff in the cart! She picked.

Whole Grain Fishies
Ritz peanut butter crackers
Bread---Wheat even, but not the 100% whole wheat, I tried, but didn't work
Bologna and Turkey with cheese
Mustard
Pickles
tomatoes
Strawberry Apple sauce
Grapes and Bananas
In addition I added Brocolli, which she really likes, but will not admit to it at the store!

She has made her own sandwich a few times this week and is enjoying it. I alos let her cut up her own banana with a butter knife, and she enjoys helping with the dishes! She also painted her very own toe nails last night. (that took alot of patience on my part).
Her favorite cartoon and actually the only thing she will watch (other than So you think you can dance/ Wipeout) is Handy Manny. I don't know what it is about that guy and his tools, but she is into it! Well, a cute guy who fixes anything and everything, can dance and talks to his tools! Well, I guess who can blame her! LOL
She is way into skirts right now and is wearing pretty much anything that she has without a wine, large buttom lip, or arms crossed and stomp of the foot! We are getting places!

Head in the Clouds

Oh, that is soo how I feel today, I thought this yucky cold was going away, then last night it took a turn. My nose started running/yet I felt dry and stuffed up. I coughed well into the 1am hour and woke up to go to the bathrooma few times as I wiped the goop from my eyes.
Luckily my dad called about 750a and woke us up. I jumped in the shower and woke Paige up and got ready to go, of course she has to be at school prior to 830a to get breakfast there, which is a the only way she will have it these days. So we were out of the house by 815A and on our way. Good thing I am far from "high maintenance". But everything happened so fast and i felt sooo horrible! I went back to Urgent care and am now on an antibiotic for a sinus infection, eye drops for my goopy eyes and a steroid nasal spray. I am soo ready to feel better, I am exhausted.
Still no sign of Sugar, I called the Town Hall today and they have had numerous cases of missing Cats in the last few weeks, said they have had numerous coyote and wolf sightings. Poor Sugar!
Paige had a headache yesterday, I was able to give her Tylenol and Motrin, she slept for a good 30-45 minutes and was good as new. I am going to start giving her Zyrtec at night time and see if that helps, not only with the headahce but the allergies. She has not had a headache for about 2 months, so hopefully they will stay away!

Recovering and Lost Sugar..............

Wow, I am finally feeling a bit better form what has been the WORST ever soar throat. I have had strep a few times and soar throats, but his is the WORST soar throat I have ever had in my life! I pray that Paige does not get this! Strep test was negative, I did get a decongestant with Codeine. Wouldn't you know, Codeine has the exact opposite effect on me than it is supposed to. Codiene makes me WIRED! So I took it the first night, releived none of the pain and I was up till well after 2a. Finally fell asleep, waking every 20-30 minutes and then Paige decides to get up at 530A. She has no gotten up this early in forever! So needless to say I started the day with my Codeine, I knew I could count on that and a few cups of coffee to get me going. Thanks to my dad, he came and mowed my yard and changed the oil in my car and hung with Paige for a bit!
Feeling better, AAAHHH!! So nice.
Sugar (cat) is missing. Not sure where she might be, maybe in a coyotee's tummy or maybe someone took her. But she has been gone for 2 days, this has never happened before. So Long SUGAR D BUGAR!

Summer bummers!

Had scratchy throat yesterday, today it is full blown pain and yucky sinus's. I hope today is the worst of it. Paige's class in the last week has had, Fever, nasty coughs, pink eye, strep throat, and stomach flu. Wew, that is tough! Paige had a bit of a fever a few weekends ago, she does have a bit of a cough and runny nose, but nothing more than a usual allergy season would bring.
So luckily that is all we got out of it. Hopefully this will be the end of it for a while. I am a bit worried about Kindergarden, different kids, different germs. YUK!
Other than Swimming, Riding bikes, mosquito bites, numerous trips to the parks, Absolutely nothing is new here. My work is very slow, which calls for very long days.
Paige is up in Estes with my mom and dad at my sisters.
And for anybody who wants to look, the website for Landon's Hope 2010 is up and running, I am taking a bit of a break from it all, but come another few weeks, I am going full swing to make this bigger than the last!
www.umdf.org/landonshope

It worked

So the whole Bribing thing worked, she is now wearing all those cute shorts, well most of them anyways, and it is a thing of the past. If she forgets about our little deal, I simply remind her and that is the end of it!
It has been a pretty slow few weeks. She is not in any sports other than her ballet at school. I think she got a bit burned out at swim lessons this spring, so we are taking a break from that.
She is spashing around in her littler pool and having lots of fun with it and goign to the park. She is tackling a few things at the park that she had been afraid of a few months ago. And I think maybe she is going through some sort of growth spurt. For dinner she had.
Hotdog/green beans
Strawberry breakfast bar
about 15 crackers
4 slices of summer sausage
and then another hot dog.
This was all between 6p-8p. Yikes, that really is about a whole days worth of eating! That is all heard last night, "Mommy' I'm hungry"!
Being home the last few weekends, I tackled all of my weeds, yes all of them! My yard looks great! I did have some down time as Paige has spent some time with her dad the last few weekends, So I was BORED! I sat in the sun and read, cleaned, and back and forth!
And we do not ahve any big plans for the 4th. Fireworks at 930p-10p, is kinda late for a kiddo who is tucked in nice and sound by 830p. But, we'll see.
Happy 4th and be safe!