Going to pick out head stone

Ugh! Why is this soo difficutl for me. Am I in some sort of denial? We did not pick out a headstone for Landon after his passing. Quite frankly it was not priority for me nor affordable.
But thing I hav taken to the cemetary are dissapearing and that makes me very angry. We are going tomorrow to pick out a headstone so we can have a more appropriate place to go to greive, pray, cry. I am having such a tough time with this, I just cannot understan why, after all we have gone through. I am however going to be relevied when it is picked out. Maybe it is the fact that this it soo important and must be perfect, that the decision must be right because after all it will be there forever. I hope! Feeling emotional.
Paige was watching a cartoon this morning, they must have had a new baby boy in the house.
The little girl was singing to him....Little Brother, Little Brother, your hear with me forever and ever, I will take care of you, kiss you, love...................I stood in the other room and cried.
EMOTIONAL!
Lord please give me strength to make it through tomorrow......

Spring Fever

I have a major case of it! Saturday was really nice, took baloo for a nice walk! Sunday on the other hand was a complete windy disaster. Could not even step outside. needless to say it was a long, boring, eat everything in the house day!
Paige had the tummy flu on Thursday. Now she has this nasty cold. She did go to school today, of course against her own will, but I am sure she will do just fine when there!
I got some much needed time to myself on Saturday night. Soaked in the tub and had a glas of wine. Painted my toe nails and watched Twilight. Fell asleep on the couch about 9p and didn't even think about crawling out of bed till 8a Sunday morning. Very nice!
I have yet to plant seeds as they are not available in the stores yet. Hopefully soon!